So!! School has been crazy fun of late. I've been studying hard and for the first time, I know I'm not letting myself down. I need to find myself some time to love my piano, though. Nowadays I'm forced to go for days at a time without hearing it! When I come home dead beat and late into the night, I see the ebony beauty which sits commandingly in my room, and I really do feel a pang. :(
Today I went to play soccer with the dudes. It was damn fun and I think I made some new friends but I felt pretty lazy so I didn't run around much, didn't bother to aim much and basically just watched the others play. Not that it's always like that! Heh.
Today I went around calling people Bob on a stroke of inspiration. EVERYBODY I knew was Bob for a day! I mean, you have the same name as everyone. That's pretty damn awesome.
School nowadays is great because of my focus, and my friends. Definitely not my classmates. Not for the first time in my life, I regret ever having picked the 3x science class. The subjects are pretty good, but I generally dislike the people. Nobody there really clicks with me you know?!?! Well, more or less, it's just Anderson the rush-to-KFC-for-lunch-then-late-for-lesson buddy, and Zul the confidante-plus-everything-else-zaikiah-ster. I don't really talk to anyone else and my class is sooo fragmented it's all about "To Each His Own" and shit so it's normally pretty damn boring. And I feel more part of a class with 4R2 then with my own class but I'm not really in 4R2 so there's the awkward situation whereby 4R2 is going Genting and some people are like "Hey Keith should come too" while some people are like "No Keith is 4R1 so he shouldn't come". I mean I want to go larhh because 4R2 means more to me as a class than 4R1 ever did but in the end I'm not REALLY in 4R2 so it's mighty awkward and it's a fucking shitty situation to be in :(:( Zzzzzzzzz.
I've just been to a website I shouldn't have been to (no, not porn -,-) and I feel slightly happy, slightly sad, and pretty puzzled. Let's just leave it at that, maybe I'll tell the Bobs closer to me or whatever. I have learnt to tell myself: Whenever it appears like it's a hint for you, it's really just you making things up. Yeah I know, pessimistic much, but I'd choose hurting the person who really IS hinting at something, over making myself look like a fool, anyday of the week. It's not me being a self-centered asshole, it's that anyone who falls for the same pothole twice is an idiot.
I hope this particular person disappears quickly because I still can't entirely forget
I think I'm losing my focus!! Shit. Nooo I have to get myself back on track because it may only be halfway through, but I've come too far to lose sight of my goals now. C'mon
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